Sunday, September 20, 2009

Thompson Twins

This was one of my favorite songs when I was in high school. It still is one of my favorite songs.

"Hold Me Now"

i have a picture
pinned to my wall
an image of you and of me
we were laughing with love in it all

look at our life now
tattered and torn
fussing and fighting
delighting with tears
and we cry until dawn

(oh oh)
hold me now
(woah)
hold my hand
stay with me
let loving start
let loving start

you say i'm a dreamer
we're two of a kind
both of us searching for
some perfect world
we know we'll never find

so perhaps i should leave here
yeah go far away
but you know that
there's nowhere that
i'd rather be than
with you here today

~Chorus
(oh oh)
hold me now
(oh)
hold my hand
stay with me
let loving start
let loving start

(repeat chorus)

woah oh oh

you ask if i love you
what can i say
you know that i do
and that this is just
one of those games that we play

so i sing you a new song
please don't cry any more
and i ask your forgiveness
though i don't know just
what i'm asking it for

(oh oh oh oh)
hold me now
(woah)
hold my hand
stay with me
let loving start
let loving start...

(repeats til end)

Thursday, September 03, 2009

Writing again...We'll see where this goes. Part Trois

When we left G_G she had met Knight W face to face and had spent an enjoyable day with him. He went to a local lodging establishment for the night and G_G went to her small castle where she talked to her angel-kitty about her new friend.

On Sunday, G_G went to church and spent time with Heaven King. King father, Queen mother and Knight brother wanted to know about her day. She told them Knight W was a very kind person and she hoped to introduce them soon. Queen mother was still very cautious.

G_G thanked her mother for her concern and left to go home to continue grading papers and wait for Knight W's page. Before she left the church Knight W sent a page and G_G found a phone to check her message and then call the knight. They talked briefly and agreed to meet at a local establishment where G_G could work, the knight could help and the could both be safe in public.

The time together went well. They enjoyed their new friendship. The knight realized he did not yet want to return to his castle. He asked G_G if she would mind if he stayed another day as he did not have to return to work for several more days. G_G cooly replied, "It's a free country." She was not thinking romance in the least!

The knight laughed and told her he would freely decide to stay. G_G stared at the papers and realized the work just seemed to increase. She decided she would take the following day off of work and do paperwork all day. By doing this she would turn her grades in first thing on Tuesday.

She mentioned the plan to the knight. He offered to continue to help. G_G realized that she needed to work at her castle since everything she required was there. With a prayer she accepted his offer to help. G_G drafted directions to her castle and arranged a time for the knight to come. They parted ways with a friendly hug. The knight returned to his lodgings and G_G went to her small castle and quickly cleaned. She also arranged for a substitute for her students, typed up plans and did a few more papers.

The next morning, G_G went to the school early and took care of her plans. She returned home and began to work. The knight arrived exactly on time. He was very polite. They spent the day grading papers and finished all of the work before 3pm. The knight was very hungry and suggested they have lunch. G_G agreed and allowed the knight to drive her in his carriage to a local establishment she felt he might like. They talked more and were amazed at how at ease they both were.

The knight asked about G_G's training and she remarked that she had a class that evening. Knight W asked if he could watch her class. G_G knew this would involve taking him to the family shoppe. She decided it might help if her family knew her friend. She accepted his offer and when they left the establishment they went to the shoppe.

The knight had a beautiful carriage. When they arrived at the shoppe, all of the knights, princes, kings, squires, and even some of the princesses went to meet the owner of this amazing carriage. They all welcomed the knight and enjoyed talking to him. Queen mother was not so easily won. She watched him with a mother's eye. King father was kind but cautious. Knight brother just wanted G_G to be happy.

The knight was impressed by G_G's training. It was very different than his tests of strength. He respected the work G_G, King father and Knight brother had done to attain their rank. Queen mother asked questions while they watched.

After the classes, G_G and the knight went to dinner. The knight let G_G eat in his carriage, something he did not allow others to do (she did not know this at the time). She thanked him for helping her and told him it was nice to have a friend. The knight asked if he could come to visit her again. He enjoyed her company. Again G_G replied, "It is a free country. Now you also know where lodgings are as well."

The knight drove G_G to her home and gave her a friendly hug. He went to his lodgings and G_G closed her small castle for the night. She thanked Heaven King for her friend and for the blessings in her life. Knight W went to his lodgings, also thankful for a friend and thinking about how remarkable G_G truly was. He knew he wanted to spend more time with her and learn more about her.

The next day G_G returned to Woodham and taught her students. Knight W pointed his carriage toward home. That afternoon G_G found a message on her magic apple when she returned home. The knight had gotten home safely and thanked her again for a wonderful time.

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Writing again...We'll see where this goes. Part Deux

~The Story of G_G and her WH~ (part 2)

Backing up just a tad. It may help, dear reader, to learn a little more about little G_G. She dedicated her life to her Heaven King as but a wee lass and had grown up seeking His will for her life. Her King father and Queen mother were also believers. G_G had grown up in church and had loved to sing, perform and learn all she could about Heaven King.

G_G also loved school. Most of the time she had wonderful teachers who encouraged G_G to use her talents. G_G did struggle sometimes and later learned she suffered from dyslexia. In high school she went to a wonderful private school that was committed to Heaven King. During this time G_G became very ill. She was allowed to contract an illness that she would carry for all her life. It was a scary time for G_G and her family.

The medical care she received was good but sometime filled with doubts. The doctor's kept looking for an answer when Queen mother would not back down. Eventually she was diagnosed with Epstein-Barr Virus. It changed her. Some people could not understand the change in G_G and friends pulled away. Some thought they could become ill from G_G. It was a difficult time; however, the friends that stood by her side and became her friends were blessings, indeed.

As mentioned yesterday, leaving the wonderful wonderland of El Cajon was devastating for G_G. It was only when she began to meet with her kindly counselor she began to realize how hard this move had been and how this opened the door for the dark fog that plagued her since 1987. (all of this and stories of El Cajon will have to wait for another day and another story time, though).

After the villain left G_G struggled with feeling that no knight, prince, squire, king or even surf would even be interested in her. She had allowed herself to trust the villain and that trust had been shattered. Trusting the villain had been no easy task, either! Before meeting the villain, G_G had spent 3 years held captive by an evil ogre.

The ogre had attended the same university as G_G. It was a university dedicated to Heaven King; however, it wasn't the warm, nurturing, loving environment her school in the wonderland of El Cajon had been. This school believed serving Heaven King was best done through rules and those who did not follow the rules were treated harshly.

Leaving the wonderland was hard enough. Feeling captive in this swamp was awful. Dark clouds followed G_G during every day of this time. She was aware of them but could not fight them. She felt alone, trapped in a tower. She prayed daily for rescue. One day she met an ogre. He did not seem to be an ogre, though. He appeared to be a young Squire studying Heaven King. He attended G_G's Queen Grandmother's church and served the youth there.

The ogre courted G_G. She was not interested for some time; however, she eventually warmed to him. At the end of her first year at university, the Squire escorted G_G to her parent's home and met the King father, Queen mother and young Knight brother. The ogre asked permission to court G_G and she was flattered by his manners. They began a courtship that 10 months later brought a proposal.

The ogre's parents were a strange pair. Ogre father was opinionated and thought women needed to be in their place. Ogre mother believed no one was as good as her child. They wanted everything for their ogre son so they cast a spell on him to draw in a wife that would would take care of him. Ogre mother wanted ogre son to have a wife with brown hair and blue eyes, poor G_G had both.

Less than three months before the nuptules Ogre mother began to show her true nature. She did not want to give up her son. She began to fight with G_G leaving G_G so confused. She did not know these were ogres and the spell was beginning to weaken. The ogre family worked harder to keep ogre mother from showing her true nature and G_G from learning the truth.

G_G married the ogre. This started a period of total darkness for her. Almost at once the Ogre began to show his true nature. G_G was even more confused. What had happened? She believed Heaven King had put her with a Squire and now he was an ogre! His family spewed hate on her. The ogre began to unleash his temper on G_G. The abuse was vast and awful. G_G was held captive in a tall castle with a deep moat. She was only allowed to leave to go to the swamp university or church. She went almost nowhere without the Ogre. People turned a blind eye to G_G's hints of what was happening.

Finally, G_G got away from the Ogre. (this is an exciting tale that will have to wait for another day! THIS story is about G_G and her WH) Knowing how broken G_G had felt after being ravaged by the Ogre, being enchanted to trust the villain and then having them both discard her like old fish does help know how much Heaven King did to heal her wounded heart and spirit.

Understandably, G_G was not interested in being courted by anyone. She prayed and told Heaven King that she was content being single and if His plans were otherwise He would have to show her. She asked Heaven King to drop the suitor in her lap. She would not be looking and would, instead, dedicate her time to other tasks.

G_G did not need the stress of courting or suitors during this time of healing. If any suitor had been casting an eye her way, G_G was not aware. G_G was very afraid of people rejecting her as 'damaged' or foolish. Many fears materialized. She had never thought she was attractive and the damage of the ogre and the villain reinforced her every fear. The supportive words of friends like Prince D did help; however, when alone in her small castle with her angel-kitty and a mirror, G_G would cry bitter tears for all she had lost (including the painful truth that the ogre had rendered her unable to have children).

So...back to the story at hand. G_G received the message Knight W sent to the wee ones in the kingdom in South Florida. It was a kind note and G_G noticed the knight lived in a small kingdom she had taken her private carriage through while in the swamp university. It also did not pass her notice that this place was a small hour from the castle belonging to the ogre family, whom she had thankfully not heard from since the ogre had left.

As was her habit, G_G wrote Knight W a friendly note. She introduced herself and wished the knight a good day. She went on with her grading and research, not thinking she would hear from him again. Before bed she checked her messages once more and was surprised to find a note from the knight. Thus began the next weeks. They began a friendship through letters, telling about their day and sharing anecdotes of their life. G_G did not, though, share about the ogre or the villain that had just released her. Knight W did not share about the shrew. It was too soon to confide such things.

One day, though, G_G felt very convicted about not being honest. The knight seemed like such a kind fellow and she wanted to be honest that she was not seeking a romantic involvement. She knew the knight was also dedicated to Heaven King. She began a careful note telling him of her past and her commitment to Heaven King. She told him she was not seeking a suitor and if he was she would understand if he did not wish to continue their friendship. With a prayer she sent the letter and tried to busy herself with various tasks. She did not want to lose a friend; however, she did not want to be untruthful, either!

What seemed like ages later she received a letter from Knight W. He revealed his story about the shrew and that he, too, was just happy to find a friend. He then offered his phone number if G_G ever needed to talk. Ever cautious, G_G gave the knight her pager number.

They did talk on the phone and they both enjoyed these times. Their friendship was genuine. They both felt free to be themselves. After several more weeks, the knight asked G_G to exchange pictures. He wanted to put a name, face and voice together. G_G was quite frightened. What if the knight rejected her!? She was not ready to lose a friend!!!!! After praying, she agreed to send the knight pictures, if he would do the same. Knight W agreed and shared his address. Still being cautious, G_G gave the knight the address at the school.

They each gathered photos, mailed them and waited. G_G was busy with grades and putting together reports for her students. Knight W was busy with his responsibilities. Then G_G received an envelope at the school. She did not know the handwriting and it took her a moment to recognize the knights name. Opening the envelope, G_G was greeted with a kindly note and photos of her friend. He did not look like G_G imagined; however, he did look like someone G_G would love to be close friends with.

G_G spent the day planning her weekend. She looked forward to training that evening, going to eat with her training friends and getting ready to grade papers over the weekend. When she got home G_G found a message from the Knight. He asked permission to come meet G_G. Her pictures had not arrived; yet, he knew he wanted to take her to lunch and spend some time talking.

Not sure why, G_G said yes. She spend the evening moving from task to task. Why had she said yes? She was only having lunch with a friend; but, it was a friend she had only known through the magic apple. They made plans and G_G had him plan to come to her place of training, that would be safe.

The next day G_G dressed and went to training. It seemed odd, though. She knew the knight was coming. Her Queen mother was less than pleased. She knew how difficult things had been for G_G. She was afraid this knight may be a troll, villain, ogre or other miscreant. G_G's King father was wise and reminded G_G to stay in public places and they were near if she needed them. Knight brother just asked G_G to be safe and remember her training. They hugged and were each reminded they were blessed to have the other.

Finally, the knight contacted G_G. He had gotten lost in the unfamiliar kingdom. G_G directed him to a local spot and then took her private carriage to meet him. While G_G knew what the knight looked like, her photos had not reached him before he left. She met him in a public place and they shook hands. They carefully began to talk and the knight asked if they could eat. G_G suggested several places and then the knight followed her to the place he chose.

At lunch, they were served by the wife of one of G_G's training partners. The knight and G_G enjoyed lunch and each relaxed around the other. After lunch, G_G needed to grade papers. Explaining the need to the knight, he offered to aid her in his task. G_G was torn, the help would be welcome; however, where could they go and still be in public? After a beat she suggested he follow her to a park where they graded papers (and saw many people G_G knew). As the day grew dark, the knight invited G_G to see a movie as a reward for the day's work. He followed her to a local establishment. Sitting down, G_G was tapped on the shoulder by a fellow teacher. All day Heaven King had sent people to help G_G feel safe. She smiled and said a silent thanks.

After the movie, it was growing late. The knight required lodging. G_G directed him to a local place and he shook her hand and thanked her for the day. G_G invited him to church the following day; however, the knight felt he did not have the proper clothing with him. He had intended to leave the next morning. G_G suggested he watch the service on television and he agreed. The knight asked to see G_G again the next day. G_G suggested he use her pager number after church and sunday school. The knight agreed and each went their own way to contemplate their thoughts of the days events.

G_G was thankful for a friend and for the way Heaven King protected her. Knight W was thankful for a safe trip and an enjoyable day. Neither knew this day would change their lives forever.