I've been praying for the opportunity to go to Grad school for some time now. Since I got my BA I knew I wanted to go farther. I felt like God wanted me to do more. It has been quite a journey, though. I struggled to know what the degree should be in and have changed my mind a number of times!!! Then I knew...theatre. Everything started to point me to where I am today.
I am exctied, and humbled, to be one the "first years" in FSU's Theatre Studies program. There are times I still struggle to tune out the many 'negative messages' I was fed over the years. College was such a bad time in my life. So many of the lessons I learned there were ones about how 'wrong' I was. In the name of christianity they did such damage. Other things have reinforced the negative as well. It is God's grace and love that is undoing these things.
So in a matter of weeks I will be heading to FSU for my first summer. Last week
I received the reading list for one of my classes (History and Literature). 26 different pieces and all of them will be covered. I admit it has me a bit scared. Tracking down all of the works has been a bit overwhelming; however, God is good. He has guided me to almost every one of them. With this list everything feels very official. I am really going.
I am a little scared that I won't be capable. Will I be able to do this? I would really like to graduate with honors (it's a personal thing...college scars). Is it selfish to want that? I know God won't put me in any situation I can't handle without Him...but I'm still nervous.
I also have to find a place to live:-\ That is one of my big things for this week. Find housing for the summer. Well, God has brought me this far and if he can provide for the Isrealites on their journey to the promised land, he can take care of one freaked out post-graduate student.
